It makes me wonder how you changed my life..
it makes me wonder how you made me want to be better..
it makes me wonder how your painful words and comments became my inspiration to change..
it makes me wonder how i have to lose you first before i realize my mistakes..
it makes me wonder how you, someone far from my ideal man, made everything else and everyone less important.
and lastly, it makes me wonder how love can be found with a movie and coffee and how it can be lost with a bottle of beer.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
hell.. death.. and LOVE
i'm down here in sm north waiting for my friend at the gym. i had coffee, walked around, bought new clothes, ate dinner, saw some friends, and again, walked around.
while i was smoking, i can't help looking down at the cars that pass.. i was trying to spot his corolla, and was hoping that he'll fetch me... i was imagining that he was still gonna be there to bring me home. the feeling of being there alone was horrible. am i that desperate to still hope for his return after every damn thing that happened?
i fight the tears that fall down my eyes, i look stupid already. i hate being in this situation. i hate feeling so sad and down.
my friend's here already.. more updates soon.
-the queen
while i was smoking, i can't help looking down at the cars that pass.. i was trying to spot his corolla, and was hoping that he'll fetch me... i was imagining that he was still gonna be there to bring me home. the feeling of being there alone was horrible. am i that desperate to still hope for his return after every damn thing that happened?
i fight the tears that fall down my eyes, i look stupid already. i hate being in this situation. i hate feeling so sad and down.
my friend's here already.. more updates soon.
-the queen
Monday, November 9, 2009
PARTY GIRL CHAPTER 1
Chapter 1: Dirty Little Secret
On a late Saturday night, three friends went to Embassy Super Club at the Fort. Somehow, the last couple of weeks they spent partying all night wasn’t enough. As Shayla parked her SUV, Hannah and Ria started to pick up their purses and checked if everything was there: make up, cigarettes, cell phones, cash, IDs. The club had been strict in terms of IDs, they said there were many underage people going in there, so they have to keep theirs in their panties so they won’t forget.
“My god, ang daming tao” said Hannah, who wore a lime green tube dress, while she got out of the car and saw the line of people outside Embassy.
“Syempre girl, Saturday eh! What do you expect?” Ria blurted out. She was wearing a white tank top, purple skinny jeans, and white pumps.
“We’re VIPs, we don’t have to fall in line,” said Shayla, giggling. She, on the other hand, wore sexy striped shorts, a black halter top, and red pumps.
As the girls got inside, Shayla noticed an American guy checking her out. He smiled at her and she smiled back. He’s cute but I’m not interested, Shayla thought. They walked past the reception area. The stairs were divided into two: one going to the VIP lounge and the other to the main room. They went in the hip hop club because that’s where their gay friend, Alex, was waiting for them.
“Girls! Here!” screamed Alex, he was at the bar next to the Chinese girls dancing their hearts out. They were surprised to see that he wasn’t alone. A hot guy stood beside him with his arms around Alex. He was wearing a white shirt with a dog tag hanging around his neck, red skinny jeans, and black Chuck Taylors. They all kissed Alex on the cheek and gave him a who-the-hell-is-that look.
“Hannah, Ria, Shayla, this is Marcus, my boyfriend. Marcus, these are my girl friends.”
“Hey, Marcus here,” shaking their hands, “buti you got in fast, medyo madami nang tao sa labas.”Marcus said.
“yeah well, VIP eh...” Hannah said.
The girls gave Alex a thumb’s up. He was hot! They didn’t even think that he was gay.
The music was superb. The DJ was hot and Shayla’s type of guy. She was planning on going for him when Ria dragged her to buy drinks first.
“I know what you’re thinking, kaw talaga… kakadating pa lang natin si Magic na agad pupuntahan mo…”
“Ria, my dear, there’s nothing wrong with that naman ah… ” Shayla said
“Brus what are you having?” Hannah suddenly asked
“I’ll have a vodka martini,” Ria said
“Amaretto Sour for me,” Shayla said
As Shayla went through her baguette to get some cash, someone gave the bartender money for the drink that she ordered. It was the American guy.
“It’s on me.” He said
“oh no, I’ll pay for it.” Shayla said
The American guy got the Amaretto from the bartender and gave it to her. “No, It’s on me” he insisted.
“Well, thanks,” said Shayla, blushing, though it was unnoticed because of the playful lights in the club.
“I’m Kevin,” the American guy said, “what’s your name baby?”
“Baby? I’m Shayla. And these are my friends, Hannah, Ria, Alex, and Marcus.”
Kevin smiled at them, and her friends smiled back, giving her the approved look.
“uhm, Shayla, I’ll just go and look for my friends, alright? I’ll see you around.”
“Alrighty, thanks for this,” holding up the glass of Amaretto.
Right after Kevin left, Shayla’s friends had to check him out. They were giggling and obviously wondering who the guy was.
“Sino ‘yun Shay? Why did you let him go?” Hannah screamed.
Ria and Shayla lighted up their cigarettes and then Shayla said “I don’t know, he was checking me out sa labas kanina pa,”
They all laughed and danced to the consuming music DJ Magic was playing. Although Kevin seemed really nice and really cute, Shayla was still hooked on Magic. She really liked him, that’s one of the reasons why she kept telling her friends to go to Embassy.
As they danced, Shayla went up on the ledge to talk to Magic. Hannah was calling her but she didn’t seem to hear her. She needed to go to Magic.
“Hey gorgeous, who are you with?” Magic asked Shayla
“My friends are down there,”
Shayla took out her digital camera and started taking pictures of her and Magic. He was eager too. They were posing and posing until someone tapped her.
“Excuse me, ” the girl said, “Magic, honey, I want to go home, this is not really my thing, pwede hatid mo na ko?”
Magic’s smile turned upside down. “But hon, I can’t, I’m working here, and besides, the party just started, why don’t you just enjoy yourself—by the way,” turning to Shayla, “ this is my girlfriend, Andy. Andy, this is Shayla. ”
“Hi, Shayla, cute name,” turning to Magic again, “ well, uuwi na lang ako, I’ll just take a cab home.” she smiled at her as she went down the dance floor.
Shayla got a little feeling that Magic was having an awkward moment so she decided to go back to her friends. As she walked past the dancing crowd, she saw Kevin, standing by the bar, staring straight at her. He smiled, and made his way towards her. She was going to make a run for it, but he caught her early. “let’s dance,” he said. Then Shayla thought, why not? He’s cute and he bought me a drink.
Meanwhile, Alex and Marcus were flirting with each other in middle of the dance floor. Hannah was laughing so hard, she couldn’t even understand why.
“Hannah! Isang drink pa lang naiinom mo ha! Nababaliw ka na,” Ria reminded her
“No, I’m just so happy for Alex, I think. Or I’m just laughing kasi hindi talaga siya marunong magdance, hahaha!”
“Wait, where’s Shayla?” said Ria, turning head around the club. “I haven’t seen her anywhere, wala naman dun kay Magic,”
Hannah, dancing and laughing at the same time said, “Hay naku, andyan lang yun, baka kasama si Kyle,”
“Huh? Sino si Kyle?” Ria asked
“’Yung American guy chu chu niya,”
“Sira! His name is Kevin! Tipsy ka ba ha?” said Ria, who was also laughing.
“I’m into you and girl no one else but you, coz with every kiss and every hug, you make me fall in love,” Kevin was singing while his and Shayla’s forehead were together. His arms around her waist.
“How come I haven’t seen you here before?” Shayla asked, “my friends and I are here most of the time,”
Kevin looked into her eyes, and said, “Really? I always see you here. In fact, I asked Magic about you.”
“You and Magic are friends? What the hell did he tell you about me huh?” she gave Kevin a cute fake mad look.
He laughed and kissed her on the forehead. She was surprised by the way he treated her and held her. It’s like he knew her so much, that he does everything that she wanted Magic to do for her.
“Baby, I have connections. I already know many things about you Shayla Martinez.” Kevin said, smiling.
“Really? ” she smiled as well. Kevin held her tight, he tried to kiss her but she hesitated. But he didn’t give up. He pushed his lips to hers.
“Magic, pare!” a fellow jock said to Magic, “Si Kevin iniiscoran na yung chick mo,”
Magic felt a pang of pain. He did like Shayla a lot. But then he has a girlfriend before they even met in Embassy, and his best friend, Kevin liked her. So pursuing her is not an option.
“Nasan sila? Nandito pa?” asked Magic.
“Oo pare, sabihin mo sa chick mo mag ingat, baka iuwi yun, yari!”
While Kevin and Shayla danced, he was hugging her so hard. She was looking at the DJs up at the ledge. Shayla saw Magic looking at her and Kevin. She didn’t know what to do. She was in the arms of a hot guy, but she wanted Magic. He knows it, she knows it. But he has a girlfriend, thought Shayla, and this friend of his is checking me out.
“Do you want another drink?” asked Kevin
“A shot of tequila will do, ” she said, anything to take him off her tail.
“Alright! I’ll be back. Stay here.”
But Shayla didn’t. As soon as Kevin went to get tequilas, she was on her way to Magic. She suddenly stopped but Magic saw her. He invited her up and she didn’t refuse.
“Where’s Kevin?” he asked
“At the bar-- did Andy really went home?” Shayla asked
“Yup. She’s not much of a party girl. Unlike you, hardcore ka eh!”
“Haha, very funny. Hoy, sabi ni Kevin you told stuff about me daw sa kanya, anung sinabi mo ha?”
Magic laughed. “Wala ‘no! makulit kasi yun, trip ka, niloko ko nga, sabi ko chick kita, inaway ako!”
“Baliw ka pala eh! Uhm, Magic,” Shayla segued, “after nito, Starbucks tayo,” she said, nervously, hoping that Magic would say yes.
“Sure.” Kevin said, he saw Magic and Shayla talking and followed her up at the DJ’s. Shayla almost wanted to kill him.
“Di naman kasi iniinvite, sagot ng sagot,” Shayla murmured.
“What were you saying? Sorry, didn’t catch it,” Kevin said.
“Kev, pare, sige ba, libre mo kami ni Shayla ha!” Magic interrupted.
Kevin put out his wallet and got thirty 1 thousand bills and said, “Sure, pare, invite your friends too Shayla.”
Arrogant! Yabang! Hmp! Kung ‘di mo lang friend si Magic, My God!, Shayla thought.
After the party, Shayla Kevin, Magic, and her friends were enjoying the conversation they have in Starbucks. All of a sudden, Magic’s phone rang.
“Oops, it’s Andy, excuse me guys ha,”
“Andy’s really guarding Magic,” Kevin said, “after he caught her in bed with--” he stopped
“with whom?” Shayla asked
Kevin seemed to blush, “No one, forget I said anything, I’m just gonna go to the CR,”
“Alright,” Shayla said
Like a bolt of lightning, Shayla and her friends looked at each other. “What’s with the forget-I-said-anything crap?” whispered Hannah.
“Looks like Andy has her dirty little secret,” Alex said.
As Shayla light up another cigarette, Kevin shoved it out of her hands, “Baby, stop this, it’s killing you,”
Magic, who was done talking to Andy, blurted out, “Man, let her smoke, human rights pare,” turning to Shayla’s friends, “right guys?”
Everybody nodded. Kevin was a little embarrassed, so he gave Shayla back her Dunhill. “I didn’t know you smoke,” he said.
“I do, matagal na, ka jamming ko pa nga parati si Magic eh,” Shayla said.
Kevin gave Magic a stern look, but he was busy smoking and talking to Alex that he didn’t notice.
“Shayla, I’ll take you home, alright?” Kevin said
She was relieved though, because she brought her car, “Kev, sorry, my car’s here, and I have to take this lot home,” pointing at her friends.
“Shayla, may room pa ba? Sabay na ko sayo, ,” Magic suddenly said.
After Shayla dropped everybody, she and Magic were left in the car alone. There was an awkward silence, so she turned on the sounds. But Magic turned it off.
“I have to tell you something,” he said
“What is it? Serious mode ba?”
“Hmm… Andy cheated,”
Shayla suddenly stepped on the brakes, “What?!”
“Hey, Shayla, careful, kaya ako sumabay sayo, I need to let it out, I caught her in bed with Kevin,”
“wait, wait, Kevin? American hunk? The one I met kanina? Yung friend mo?”
Magic sighed, “Best friend,”
Shayla tried to hide her emotions, she doesn’t want to make Magic feel that she’s happy because of that, nor does she want him to feel pitied.
“But I didn’t make such a big deal out of it. At least that’s what they think. ”
“Why are you telling me this?” asked Shayla
“Because… I don’t want you to be with Kevin, I’m his best friend, yet he screwed my girl, you’re like a sister to me na, kaya ayoko siya for you,”
Sister? Tae, Shayla thought. “Uhm, do you want to talk about it? Daan tayo sa drive thru for breakfast, tell me all the details sa bahay ko,”
Shayla thought Magic would say no. but he didn’t even think twice. He nodded right away.
“My god, ang daming tao” said Hannah, who wore a lime green tube dress, while she got out of the car and saw the line of people outside Embassy.
“Syempre girl, Saturday eh! What do you expect?” Ria blurted out. She was wearing a white tank top, purple skinny jeans, and white pumps.
“We’re VIPs, we don’t have to fall in line,” said Shayla, giggling. She, on the other hand, wore sexy striped shorts, a black halter top, and red pumps.
As the girls got inside, Shayla noticed an American guy checking her out. He smiled at her and she smiled back. He’s cute but I’m not interested, Shayla thought. They walked past the reception area. The stairs were divided into two: one going to the VIP lounge and the other to the main room. They went in the hip hop club because that’s where their gay friend, Alex, was waiting for them.
“Girls! Here!” screamed Alex, he was at the bar next to the Chinese girls dancing their hearts out. They were surprised to see that he wasn’t alone. A hot guy stood beside him with his arms around Alex. He was wearing a white shirt with a dog tag hanging around his neck, red skinny jeans, and black Chuck Taylors. They all kissed Alex on the cheek and gave him a who-the-hell-is-that look.
“Hannah, Ria, Shayla, this is Marcus, my boyfriend. Marcus, these are my girl friends.”
“Hey, Marcus here,” shaking their hands, “buti you got in fast, medyo madami nang tao sa labas.”Marcus said.
“yeah well, VIP eh...” Hannah said.
The girls gave Alex a thumb’s up. He was hot! They didn’t even think that he was gay.
The music was superb. The DJ was hot and Shayla’s type of guy. She was planning on going for him when Ria dragged her to buy drinks first.
“I know what you’re thinking, kaw talaga… kakadating pa lang natin si Magic na agad pupuntahan mo…”
“Ria, my dear, there’s nothing wrong with that naman ah… ” Shayla said
“Brus what are you having?” Hannah suddenly asked
“I’ll have a vodka martini,” Ria said
“Amaretto Sour for me,” Shayla said
As Shayla went through her baguette to get some cash, someone gave the bartender money for the drink that she ordered. It was the American guy.
“It’s on me.” He said
“oh no, I’ll pay for it.” Shayla said
The American guy got the Amaretto from the bartender and gave it to her. “No, It’s on me” he insisted.
“Well, thanks,” said Shayla, blushing, though it was unnoticed because of the playful lights in the club.
“I’m Kevin,” the American guy said, “what’s your name baby?”
“Baby? I’m Shayla. And these are my friends, Hannah, Ria, Alex, and Marcus.”
Kevin smiled at them, and her friends smiled back, giving her the approved look.
“uhm, Shayla, I’ll just go and look for my friends, alright? I’ll see you around.”
“Alrighty, thanks for this,” holding up the glass of Amaretto.
Right after Kevin left, Shayla’s friends had to check him out. They were giggling and obviously wondering who the guy was.
“Sino ‘yun Shay? Why did you let him go?” Hannah screamed.
Ria and Shayla lighted up their cigarettes and then Shayla said “I don’t know, he was checking me out sa labas kanina pa,”
They all laughed and danced to the consuming music DJ Magic was playing. Although Kevin seemed really nice and really cute, Shayla was still hooked on Magic. She really liked him, that’s one of the reasons why she kept telling her friends to go to Embassy.
As they danced, Shayla went up on the ledge to talk to Magic. Hannah was calling her but she didn’t seem to hear her. She needed to go to Magic.
“Hey gorgeous, who are you with?” Magic asked Shayla
“My friends are down there,”
Shayla took out her digital camera and started taking pictures of her and Magic. He was eager too. They were posing and posing until someone tapped her.
“Excuse me, ” the girl said, “Magic, honey, I want to go home, this is not really my thing, pwede hatid mo na ko?”
Magic’s smile turned upside down. “But hon, I can’t, I’m working here, and besides, the party just started, why don’t you just enjoy yourself—by the way,” turning to Shayla, “ this is my girlfriend, Andy. Andy, this is Shayla. ”
“Hi, Shayla, cute name,” turning to Magic again, “ well, uuwi na lang ako, I’ll just take a cab home.” she smiled at her as she went down the dance floor.
Shayla got a little feeling that Magic was having an awkward moment so she decided to go back to her friends. As she walked past the dancing crowd, she saw Kevin, standing by the bar, staring straight at her. He smiled, and made his way towards her. She was going to make a run for it, but he caught her early. “let’s dance,” he said. Then Shayla thought, why not? He’s cute and he bought me a drink.
Meanwhile, Alex and Marcus were flirting with each other in middle of the dance floor. Hannah was laughing so hard, she couldn’t even understand why.
“Hannah! Isang drink pa lang naiinom mo ha! Nababaliw ka na,” Ria reminded her
“No, I’m just so happy for Alex, I think. Or I’m just laughing kasi hindi talaga siya marunong magdance, hahaha!”
“Wait, where’s Shayla?” said Ria, turning head around the club. “I haven’t seen her anywhere, wala naman dun kay Magic,”
Hannah, dancing and laughing at the same time said, “Hay naku, andyan lang yun, baka kasama si Kyle,”
“Huh? Sino si Kyle?” Ria asked
“’Yung American guy chu chu niya,”
“Sira! His name is Kevin! Tipsy ka ba ha?” said Ria, who was also laughing.
“I’m into you and girl no one else but you, coz with every kiss and every hug, you make me fall in love,” Kevin was singing while his and Shayla’s forehead were together. His arms around her waist.
“How come I haven’t seen you here before?” Shayla asked, “my friends and I are here most of the time,”
Kevin looked into her eyes, and said, “Really? I always see you here. In fact, I asked Magic about you.”
“You and Magic are friends? What the hell did he tell you about me huh?” she gave Kevin a cute fake mad look.
He laughed and kissed her on the forehead. She was surprised by the way he treated her and held her. It’s like he knew her so much, that he does everything that she wanted Magic to do for her.
“Baby, I have connections. I already know many things about you Shayla Martinez.” Kevin said, smiling.
“Really? ” she smiled as well. Kevin held her tight, he tried to kiss her but she hesitated. But he didn’t give up. He pushed his lips to hers.
“Magic, pare!” a fellow jock said to Magic, “Si Kevin iniiscoran na yung chick mo,”
Magic felt a pang of pain. He did like Shayla a lot. But then he has a girlfriend before they even met in Embassy, and his best friend, Kevin liked her. So pursuing her is not an option.
“Nasan sila? Nandito pa?” asked Magic.
“Oo pare, sabihin mo sa chick mo mag ingat, baka iuwi yun, yari!”
While Kevin and Shayla danced, he was hugging her so hard. She was looking at the DJs up at the ledge. Shayla saw Magic looking at her and Kevin. She didn’t know what to do. She was in the arms of a hot guy, but she wanted Magic. He knows it, she knows it. But he has a girlfriend, thought Shayla, and this friend of his is checking me out.
“Do you want another drink?” asked Kevin
“A shot of tequila will do, ” she said, anything to take him off her tail.
“Alright! I’ll be back. Stay here.”
But Shayla didn’t. As soon as Kevin went to get tequilas, she was on her way to Magic. She suddenly stopped but Magic saw her. He invited her up and she didn’t refuse.
“Where’s Kevin?” he asked
“At the bar-- did Andy really went home?” Shayla asked
“Yup. She’s not much of a party girl. Unlike you, hardcore ka eh!”
“Haha, very funny. Hoy, sabi ni Kevin you told stuff about me daw sa kanya, anung sinabi mo ha?”
Magic laughed. “Wala ‘no! makulit kasi yun, trip ka, niloko ko nga, sabi ko chick kita, inaway ako!”
“Baliw ka pala eh! Uhm, Magic,” Shayla segued, “after nito, Starbucks tayo,” she said, nervously, hoping that Magic would say yes.
“Sure.” Kevin said, he saw Magic and Shayla talking and followed her up at the DJ’s. Shayla almost wanted to kill him.
“Di naman kasi iniinvite, sagot ng sagot,” Shayla murmured.
“What were you saying? Sorry, didn’t catch it,” Kevin said.
“Kev, pare, sige ba, libre mo kami ni Shayla ha!” Magic interrupted.
Kevin put out his wallet and got thirty 1 thousand bills and said, “Sure, pare, invite your friends too Shayla.”
Arrogant! Yabang! Hmp! Kung ‘di mo lang friend si Magic, My God!, Shayla thought.
After the party, Shayla Kevin, Magic, and her friends were enjoying the conversation they have in Starbucks. All of a sudden, Magic’s phone rang.
“Oops, it’s Andy, excuse me guys ha,”
“Andy’s really guarding Magic,” Kevin said, “after he caught her in bed with--” he stopped
“with whom?” Shayla asked
Kevin seemed to blush, “No one, forget I said anything, I’m just gonna go to the CR,”
“Alright,” Shayla said
Like a bolt of lightning, Shayla and her friends looked at each other. “What’s with the forget-I-said-anything crap?” whispered Hannah.
“Looks like Andy has her dirty little secret,” Alex said.
As Shayla light up another cigarette, Kevin shoved it out of her hands, “Baby, stop this, it’s killing you,”
Magic, who was done talking to Andy, blurted out, “Man, let her smoke, human rights pare,” turning to Shayla’s friends, “right guys?”
Everybody nodded. Kevin was a little embarrassed, so he gave Shayla back her Dunhill. “I didn’t know you smoke,” he said.
“I do, matagal na, ka jamming ko pa nga parati si Magic eh,” Shayla said.
Kevin gave Magic a stern look, but he was busy smoking and talking to Alex that he didn’t notice.
“Shayla, I’ll take you home, alright?” Kevin said
She was relieved though, because she brought her car, “Kev, sorry, my car’s here, and I have to take this lot home,” pointing at her friends.
“Shayla, may room pa ba? Sabay na ko sayo, ,” Magic suddenly said.
After Shayla dropped everybody, she and Magic were left in the car alone. There was an awkward silence, so she turned on the sounds. But Magic turned it off.
“I have to tell you something,” he said
“What is it? Serious mode ba?”
“Hmm… Andy cheated,”
Shayla suddenly stepped on the brakes, “What?!”
“Hey, Shayla, careful, kaya ako sumabay sayo, I need to let it out, I caught her in bed with Kevin,”
“wait, wait, Kevin? American hunk? The one I met kanina? Yung friend mo?”
Magic sighed, “Best friend,”
Shayla tried to hide her emotions, she doesn’t want to make Magic feel that she’s happy because of that, nor does she want him to feel pitied.
“But I didn’t make such a big deal out of it. At least that’s what they think. ”
“Why are you telling me this?” asked Shayla
“Because… I don’t want you to be with Kevin, I’m his best friend, yet he screwed my girl, you’re like a sister to me na, kaya ayoko siya for you,”
Sister? Tae, Shayla thought. “Uhm, do you want to talk about it? Daan tayo sa drive thru for breakfast, tell me all the details sa bahay ko,”
Shayla thought Magic would say no. but he didn’t even think twice. He nodded right away.
The Sand Beneath The Stars
I missed you.
But there was something in the way I couldn’t understand.
Hesitance kept me conscious. The same manner you kept me alive.
The might I found to trust you were the same strength that held me back.
You knew me, how I behaved, I spoke, my limitations.
You understood.
But you grew tired as well.
I walked down by the sea. I saw your face behind the strident waters,
Your voice in the brisk heavens, and your scent in the awakening sunrise.
I might have been abhorrent of you for a moment,
But I’m aware there’s no other way but back to you.
As the sand got into my toes, my heart skipped and almost stopped.
I have you now, I thought.
And even through the shadows of doubt, I may have provoked you,
You will always be the star I looked up to in the heavens.
Then I saw you from afar, a mere distance the two of us have.
There were enough reasons for me to run aback,
But all those didn’t matter now,
My individuality thought of you,
How we used to chortle, cackle, and be merry.
We may have divergences,
Yet you were everything I tried to find in this cloudy and unpleasant humanity.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
RELATIONSHIPS 101
Whoever said that relationships are easy are not in a relationship right now. Why did I say so? Well, because they chose the easy way out. Relationships, particularly, with your life partner, takes a lot out of a person.
My current relationship put my patience and my self being to the test. I had been living my life like a disposable Kleenex. What I have today, may or may not be there tomorrow. I have not been proud of all my doings in the past. And I guess I am old enough now to realize that I should be able to take over my life and do what is right: Be the ideal person for your partner and everyone else. There is such a thing as doing the right thing, not for people to see who you are, but for you to be able to accept yourself and be confident with your actions.
The struggles of a relationship starts at a point where the getting-to-know part gets deeper. My partner, King P, started the serious stuff months after we've been together. Yes, it's true that the budding of a relationship is full of excitement, happiness, romance, and fun. But we have to realize that being with someone, is not always going to be happy-ha ha, there will be times when we experience conflicts and encounter indifference that make or break what we have.
When we hit a wall, it doesn't mean that we should give up. Rather, we have to double check if we have made a mistake, or was it a simple misunderstanding that was powered up by our tempers. Most of time, it's our actions in the past that cause many many fights and arguements.
True, we have to change them. But let us not expect that our partners can change what they used to do in a snap. Remember, CHANGE is a WORK IN PROGRESS. We also have to understand that when we made a mistake, our partners could not easily forgive and forget them-- yes they can forgive, in a matter of time, but forget? I doubt it.
All we have to do is accept each other the way they are; also accept them for who they're not. We can change them, yes, but be patient enough to understand that it is not easy. And instead of putting a pressure on your partner in changing, be able to help them and guide to whatever path you want them to be.
Because if everything works out, we will be spending A WHOLE LOT OF TIME with them.
QUEENBEEJUSTINE: My personal blogs may not be understandable or whatever. But hey, this is my page. create your own! LOL! =P
My current relationship put my patience and my self being to the test. I had been living my life like a disposable Kleenex. What I have today, may or may not be there tomorrow. I have not been proud of all my doings in the past. And I guess I am old enough now to realize that I should be able to take over my life and do what is right: Be the ideal person for your partner and everyone else. There is such a thing as doing the right thing, not for people to see who you are, but for you to be able to accept yourself and be confident with your actions.
The struggles of a relationship starts at a point where the getting-to-know part gets deeper. My partner, King P, started the serious stuff months after we've been together. Yes, it's true that the budding of a relationship is full of excitement, happiness, romance, and fun. But we have to realize that being with someone, is not always going to be happy-ha ha, there will be times when we experience conflicts and encounter indifference that make or break what we have.
When we hit a wall, it doesn't mean that we should give up. Rather, we have to double check if we have made a mistake, or was it a simple misunderstanding that was powered up by our tempers. Most of time, it's our actions in the past that cause many many fights and arguements.
True, we have to change them. But let us not expect that our partners can change what they used to do in a snap. Remember, CHANGE is a WORK IN PROGRESS. We also have to understand that when we made a mistake, our partners could not easily forgive and forget them-- yes they can forgive, in a matter of time, but forget? I doubt it.
All we have to do is accept each other the way they are; also accept them for who they're not. We can change them, yes, but be patient enough to understand that it is not easy. And instead of putting a pressure on your partner in changing, be able to help them and guide to whatever path you want them to be.
Because if everything works out, we will be spending A WHOLE LOT OF TIME with them.
QUEENBEEJUSTINE: My personal blogs may not be understandable or whatever. But hey, this is my page. create your own! LOL! =P
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
EMBASSY turned ENCORE
I guess you've heard about this,
Embassy is now up and running once again. But there's a twist to their comeback.
The popular hot club is now named ENCORE. And since it was known to be the hang out of the yuppies or the kolehiyalas. Well, there's a bit of a change because Encore will now cater a more mature audience (I guess that's appropriate, I mean, most of the young people who used to go to Embassy have now, well, MATURED a bit.)
It's a known fact that Embassy's been so controversial due to the different scenarios that happened in the club (and so many times had it been closed and opened and closed and opened again). But the recent incident I guess already got to the nerve of Taguig's officials. So Vice Mayor George Elias said that there should be a change in the concept and an improvement in the club security before it would be allowed to operate once again.
So from the party-all-night-club, VM Elias said that the club planned to open a regular jazz bar where the elderly could engage in ballroom dance sessions. (whhhaaatt?!?!?!)
Although the city officials still has to decide on the matter of opening Embassy again, most of their councilors agreed on the proposal of the new concept for Embassy.
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QUEENBEEJUSTINE'S COMMENT:
Am I really seeing this? Embassy? a jazz bar to uphold ballroom dances? I mean, no offense, I love ballroom dances as well, but then, it's EMBASSY, embassoo. Grrr. So much for partying, so what's the next best thing? Anyone?
Samsung Preston
I think it would be appropriate to have my first blog about the stuff around me. My mobile phone of two months, Samsung Preston (GT s5603), is one of the touch phones of Samsung. Actually, I've been an avid Samsung follower, I've had like three Samsung phones before (E250, E590, U700), and now since touch screen phones are so popular, well, I won't be the last one to have it! =P
So about Samsung Preston GT S5603, here are what Samsung Mobile Philippines posted about this techie gadget:
Full Touch UI
• Full touch navigation experience is easy to use on the large 2.8” LCD• Showcases brilliant 262K color and crystal clear QVGA resolution
• TouchWiz v1.0 offers more versatile, intuitive and easy-to-use navigation
• Haptic feedback offers tangible feedback when using the touch screen
• Auto rotating display easily switches back and forth from portrait to landscape
• Gesture Lock / Wide Idle Screen enhances touch experiences
Design
• Compact size measures a palm-friendly 102.8 x 54.8 x 12.9 mm• Contoured corners and sloped bottom adds to the ergonomics and style of the bar mobile
• Leather case complements the mobile’s premium design and protects the LCD when not in use
Widgets
• Mobile widgets customize the screen with embedded widgets such as clock, scheduler, and other useful apps• Online widgets connect you to useful info including stock updates, weather forecasts, BBC news flashes, etc.
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3.2MP Camera
• 3.2 Megapixel Camera takes high quality photographs on the go
• Power LED flash offers a flash of light for taking pictures in dark surroundings
• Photo slideshow lets you browse through your photos in a convenient and picturesque way
• Camera-like touch user interface makes mobile photography a breeze
• Organize your pics in an easy-to-browse photo album
• Edit photos right on your mobile, no PC needed -
HSDPA & Internet Experience
• Find Music easily finds the music you want through search features
• Find Tag helps you fill in or edit metadata (tags) for your digital song files -
Music
• MP3 Player plays multi-format music files
(MP3/AAC/AAC+/e-AAC+/WMA/WAV)
• Music Recognition identifies songs for you; just record a clip of the song (just a few seconds is enough) on your phone, send it to the server, and the song will be identified within seconds
• Music Library is easy to organize and manage with MTP
• Background Music lets you keep listening while you access other applications
• FM Radio with RDS lets you tune into 24-hour music and information
QUEENBEE'S COMMENT:
Well, as far as I know, this phone is very sensitive when it comes to the charger/headset port. I've had mine fixed just a few days ago (good thing there such a thing as WARRANTY!). If ever you experience the same dilemma as I had with the phone, just make sure to bring to any Samsung Mobile Service Center (there's one in SM Megamall). Mind you, it will take a few days to a week to fix it, because they replace the motherboard of the phone immediately for the slightest damages to avoid more problems for you, that's better right?
It also comes in different colors, from what I saw when I was buying this, there was Charcoal Gray (that's mine!), White, and Red.
But all in all,this phone is FUN! Perfect for people who loves to just scroll down and is very excited to have their own touch phones.
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